Wednesday, April 29, 2015


A few friendly games of What's Gnu? with Auntie Doris. She was impressed by his spelling skills! Haha. It was cute to see them play and laugh. 
Baba brought NJ's pajamas so that he'd be all ready for bed by the time they got home after traffic. I'm so glad to see them, but I feel bad that it's so tiring for both of them! 

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

I had to order my usual for breakfast at least once. It was great to have Baba here with me in the morning, a visit from a friend, then later at night Dad and Perry. It was good to see a familiar face, she brought her sweet encouragement, positivity, a good book, lotion, silly putty, a yummy bar, and mints. (Thank you, Becky!) I'm thankful that Baba drove in traffic just to stay for a minimal amount of time to go back to get NJ for his early day. Poor guy. My dad for also driving very far just to see me in a crabby mood. And my brother who is in town for business and super busy and tired. It was good to talk to him.

Monday, April 27, 2015


Biopsy this morning. I was hoping that someone could be with me before and after, but it didn't quite happen. It wasn't any big deal anyway, I'm just not used to waking up by myself. I did see a friend who visited from within the hospital, it was nice of her to drop by. (Thanks Nancy!)
It brightened my day to see the boys. So sweet to see his smiling face. Poor guy in this tiny cramped room with nothing to do! 
Baba brought NJ to the cafeteria to have him sit and do his homework. Also so they could eat dinner. 
My day wasn't the best, I was feeling worse and pretty terrible. After the boys left I had a panic attack. I didn't know what was happening, the nurse told me that I was. Scary. I got a visit from four friends at night. They got there at the tail end to calm me down, talk to me, make me laugh, and pray for me. (Thank you Marnie, Jason, Susan, Helen!) I also had to call Baba to cry. I was going crazy in that small, stuffy, enclosed room. I think my nurses felt sorry for me or just thought I was nuts and somehow got me a bed upstairs in a room on the top floor. Not my usual part of the floor, but at least it's a room that I'm used to, more spacious, comfortable, and more attentive staff. 
It usually takes so long for anything to happen, to wait for a room, wait to be moved... But I was up there in no time. It couldn't be any sooner. I felt like I could breathe and sleep. Except that I couldn't sleep. 

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Finally admitted defeat again. I am totally regretting not coming in earlier. But what's new, I'm always stubborn and want to suck it up and get through it. It never gets better, only gets worse and I never learn. Now I'm miserable and stuck in a tiny room with no windows in the dungeon of the hospital instead of the spacious top floor where everyone knows me. This is going to be a long visit and not fun. At least I get a regular menu, I'm surprised. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

My sweet boys making me one of my favorite soups. Trying to make me feel a bit better since I haven't been feeling well. 
I'm just happy to see how much NJ enjoys the soup. :) 

Monday, April 20, 2015


I wish I could be that comfy and content as Dot on the couch. Sneaky girl.
NJ reading his chapter book.

Sunday, April 19, 2015

So sweet of our friends to visit we don't see them very often. We barbecued dinner and made s'mores for dessert.