Summerfest

Play date with a cute girl and some summer fun! NJ's been enjoying such fun outings everyday. Lucky for him the house is not the place to be. Still waiting for it to return to normal. I feel like he deserves it though. I'm making up for lost time finally. I call him my poor deprived child. Never goes anywhere or does anything because of his mother. I used to always think, how can so many moms take their kids so many places all the time? How do they have the time, energy, money, patience? How do they wear anything other than sweats (or even jeans and a tee) and put make up on? How does anyone not feel rushed or anxious all the time? Now I know... They're normal!! I haven't felt like this since way before NJ. I thought I was just getting older, but now I know I was just sick. I may not ever be normal the way everyone else is, but this is as normal as I think I'll get. With more energy, I feel like less of a terrible mother. Never going anywhere, always rushing, feeling anxious, wishing I could be more for NJ. I still get tired easily, but it's not the overwhelming exhaustion that I'd be overcome with. I'm learning to be better about my limitations. I haven't enjoyed being a mother as much as I am now. Hopefully it'll only get better. Feeling so blessed to have NJ and to be spending time with him.
I really wanted to follow Yuuki and Alex and their moms to dinner tonight, I regrettably said no and headed home instead. It was already NJ's bedtime when he still needed to eat, bathe, and have his bedtime routine. Hopefully they're not discouraged to go out again. (Thanks for coming out to meet us, we had a great time!)